don't laugh at a youth for her affectations

don't laugh at a youth for her affectations

isabelnecessary

i am le tired [Tuesday
November 22nd, 2016 ]

[ mood | tired ]

time to start anew... to my utter dismay.

friends only yo and i would like to leave it that way.

11 tried | do your worst

hot and cold [Wednesday
October 22nd, 2008 ]

What in the hell is this shyeeeettttt?

HOT and COLD media?

Good Lord.

you would think with the definitions and/or descriptions written out, it would be easier to comprehend but it is almost not helpful.

hot = intense, high definition, industrial, linear, low in audience participation or completion

cool = low intensity, low definition, tribal, nonlinear, high in audience participation or completion

i'm having such a hard time even trying to process the content of a reading our journalism class is assigned to work on. no many how many times i read something, it all just amounts to:

Blah
blah blah blah
blah blah

the individual words make sense but all together, it's a clusterfuck. it started out just fine... didn't it? was this written too many years ago that it really can't apply to some of the media platforms we're more familiar with today? that there's amazing amount of convergence between media that makes it absurdly diferent to arrange stuff along the hot and cool spectrum?

i sure as hell think so.

omgomgomgomgomgogmogmgomgomogmgomg.

not gonna lie though... i loved some of the readings we were assigned to. this one just can't seem to get through.

do your worst

here we go again [Monday
September 15th, 2008 ]

[ music | lights and sounds - cut copy ]

sooo... here i am again.

there's a chance i can get extra credit in my journalism class if i return to writing on livejournal.

speaking of journalism class, i have an essay due about analyzing media effects. so far so good. and i want to believe that i'm doing pretty well at it but it's actually overdue. (insert awkward laugh here)

ehehe..
heh...
heh...
...oi.

i think the pressure of deadlines really keeps me from writing sound papers. i have great ideas. got tons of them. organizing them and arranging them so they all make sense and tie in together very well on paper and in words... well... that's another story.

i absolutely suck at writing papers. i haven't technically written a legit paper in a year but it feels like i haven't written one ever. started some, finished none... that's what i keep thinking.

ugh... it's too bad there's no cheat sheet for essay-writing. no templates. nothing.

i have to resort to freewriting... going going going until i go off too far on a tangent that i absolutely need to straghten everything out, focus on word choice and formally address my reader.

ah.

fuck my life.

i write damn good papers.
in my head.

do your worst

Surveys Galore!!! [Sunday
November 25th, 2007 ]

[ mood | amused ]

( by-product of boredom )

1 tried | do your worst

[Thursday
May 24th, 2007 ]

[ mood | embarrassed ]

Something must really be wrong with me.
I can't believe I've been acting the way I have been towards certain people.
To you, everyone... it is and never will be enough but I truly apologize...

...I realize that I've been very irresponsible lately.

It isn't anything new but lately more and more people have been been disappointed with me. That, too, is nothing new to me... that is, until it reflects badly on those people and until my actions have accumulated to the point that too much time has passed to make up for them.

Little by little, however, I am trying to take more responsibility and also to actually be more responsible. I think the two are very different things but the first I probably wouldn't have to do had I taken responsibility in the first place.

I never mean to be negligent but it's not like I hope for anyone to take care of my negligence either. When scolded, I don't try to say otherwise... I don't try to defend myself simply because there is no stand on my part that needs to be defended. I am fully aware of my actions and wish all the time I hadn't done whatever I did do.

It was never never never in my place for me to ever have complained when people are in far worse situations than I am and that I have things I have yet to settle.

There really is nothing I can do to clean up the mess I've already made but I can always keep out of trouble, take on tasks head on, as well as make less of a fool of myself and others.

I don't know why it's taken me this long to realize how stupid I am and have been.

Nothing could possibly make up for my stupidity up until now and it really will not surprise me if I end up being disowned and becoming an even sorrier creature on this planet.

Please just don't try to sympathize.
You would only be wasting your time.

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