here we go again
sooo... here i am again.

there's a chance i can get extra credit in my journalism class if i return to writing on livejournal.

speaking of journalism class, i have an essay due about analyzing media effects. so far so good. and i want to believe that i'm doing pretty well at it but it's actually overdue. (insert awkward laugh here)

ehehe..
heh...
heh...
...oi.

i think the pressure of deadlines really keeps me from writing sound papers. i have great ideas. got tons of them. organizing them and arranging them so they all make sense and tie in together very well on paper and in words... well... that's another story.

i absolutely suck at writing papers. i haven't technically written a legit paper in a year but it feels like i haven't written one ever. started some, finished none... that's what i keep thinking.

ugh... it's too bad there's no cheat sheet for essay-writing. no templates. nothing.

i have to resort to freewriting... going going going until i go off too far on a tangent that i absolutely need to straghten everything out, focus on word choice and formally address my reader.

ah.

fuck my life.

i write damn good papers.
in my head.