don't laugh at a youth for her affectations

hot and cold

2008-10-23T06:07:19Z

What in the hell is this shyeeeettttt?

HOT and COLD media?

Good Lord.

you would think with the definitions and/or descriptions written out, it would be easier to comprehend but it is almost not helpful.

hot = intense, high definition, industrial, linear, low in audience participation or completion

cool = low intensity, low definition, tribal, nonlinear, high in audience participation or completion

i'm having such a hard time even trying to process the content of a reading our journalism class is assigned to work on. no many how many times i read something, it all just amounts to:

Blah
blah blah blah
blah blah

the individual words make sense but all together, it's a clusterfuck. it started out just fine... didn't it? was this written too many years ago that it really can't apply to some of the media platforms we're more familiar with today? that there's amazing amount of convergence between media that makes it absurdly diferent to arrange stuff along the hot and cool spectrum?

i sure as hell think so.

omgomgomgomgomgogmogmgomgomogmgomg.

not gonna lie though... i loved some of the readings we were assigned to. this one just can't seem to get through.

here we go again

2008-09-16T03:00:14Z

sooo... here i am again.

there's a chance i can get extra credit in my journalism class if i return to writing on livejournal.

speaking of journalism class, i have an essay due about analyzing media effects. so far so good. and i want to believe that i'm doing pretty well at it but it's actually overdue. (insert awkward laugh here)

ehehe..
heh...
heh...
...oi.

i think the pressure of deadlines really keeps me from writing sound papers. i have great ideas. got tons of them. organizing them and arranging them so they all make sense and tie in together very well on paper and in words... well... that's another story.

i absolutely suck at writing papers. i haven't technically written a legit paper in a year but it feels like i haven't written one ever. started some, finished none... that's what i keep thinking.

ugh... it's too bad there's no cheat sheet for essay-writing. no templates. nothing.

i have to resort to freewriting... going going going until i go off too far on a tangent that i absolutely need to straghten everything out, focus on word choice and formally address my reader.

ah.

fuck my life.

i write damn good papers.
in my head.

Surveys Galore!!!

2007-11-25T10:40:46Z

1. The status of you and the last person you texted?
My aunt.
I live with her.

2. Whats bothering you right now?
Nothing, quite surprisingly.

3. Would you kiss someone to make your BF/GF mad?
I'll think about that when I get a BF again.

4. What is in your wallet?
Which one?
Credit cards, ATM card, cash, receipts, purikura, etc.

5. How are you feeling right now?
At ease.

6. Background on your cell phone?
None.

7. Last person who texted you?
Mother.

8. Listening to?
Schubert.
It will be different by the time I finish this survey.

9. What do you smell like?
Me. Isabel de Castro.

10. Eating?
Green tea milk and pumpkin spice pie.

11. Whats your favorite thing to have on your bed?
Me and a laptop.

12. If you could change something in your life, what would it be?
My cynicism... sometimes.

13. What do you wear to bed?
Clothes.
Lately hoodies, shirt and pj pants.

14. Who will you sleep with tomorrow?
My black macbook.

15. Have you ever been gambling?
No.

16. What's something you wish you could understand better?
Why people are delusional.

17. What did you do last night?
Quite a few things I'm too lazy to list down.

18. Who do you miss?
Papa.

19. Who is the last person you hugged?
BFF Carmela.

20. Do you keep up with MLB standings?
No couldn't care less.

21. Who was the last person you went somewhere cool with?
Myself.

22. Have you kissed anyone on your top friends?
Yes.

23. What was the last thing you drank?
Green tea milk.

24. Where were you at noon yesterday?
Sleeping. Nyaha.

25. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?
A doctor.

26. Do you like someone right now?
Yes.

27. Are you bored?
If I wasn't, I wouldn't be doing this.

28. What is the last movie you watched?
Ocean's Thirteen. Meh.

29. Name three drinks you regularly drink?
Water.
Tea.
Juice.

30. What are you excited about?
Spice Girls concert.

31. Do you want someone/something you can't have?
Don't we all?
Wanna shop. NOW.

32. Who was last to slap you?
No one.

33. Where was the last place you went?
The kitchen.

34. Whats on your mind right now?
Nothing.
And it's great!

35. Have you cried recently?
Yes.

36. Do you want to be in a relationship right now?
Fuck that.

37. And why?
And get screwed over? Yuh.

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
Ugh.

2. How much cash do you have on you?
None cash goes and stays in my wallet.

3. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST"
Pest

4. Favorite planet?
Uranus.
No joke!

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?
Michele Bumgarner.

6. What is your favorite ring on your phone?
The one that I bother to use.

7. What shirt are you wearing?
Brown hollister whatever thingie.

8. Do you "label" yourself?
Stupid question.

9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing.
I'm in bed.

10. Bright or Dark Room?
Depends on the situation yo.

11. What do you think about the last person who took this survey?
She must've been bored too.

13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Barely watching Mr. Brooks.

14. What did your last text message you received on your cell say?
"Would you like to have lunch tomorrow?"

15. Where is your nearest 7-11?
Down the hill, along El Camino Real.

16. What's a saying that you use a lot?
Mm.

17.Who told you they loved you last?
BFF Carmela.

18. Last furry thing you touched?
Warm blanket.

19. How Many Drugs Have You Done In The Past three Days?
None. How about you? Hand some over!

20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?
Zero.

21. Favorite age you have been so far?
I'm not that old.
I enjoyed being 16 I guess.

22. Your worst enemy?
Mornings.

23. What is your current desktop picture?
Starry Night by Van Gogh.

24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
Wow I don't even remember.

25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly, which would you choose?
Fly through the polluted air? No thanks.
I would choose a million bucks... a million times.

26. Do you like someone?
Yes.

27. The last song you listened to?
Canon in D Major.

[Spell your first name back wards]: lebasi
[The story behind your LJ user name]: teacher's joking around using my name.
[Are you a homosexual?]: No sorry.
[Where do you live?]: Currently, California. Meh.
[4 words that sum you up]: Eccentric, Classy, Inquisitive, Aloof

DESCRIBE YOUR
[Hairbrush]: I use a comb.
[Jewelry worn daily]: Gold Mary and and Baby Jesus medallion. Gold nameplate bracelet.
[Pillow cover]: White with green leaves and etc.
[Coffee cup]: It changes.
[Underwear]: Baby blue.
[Shoes]: Barefoot at the moment.
[Favorite shirt]: San Miguel shirt.
[Favorite pants]: True Religion.
[Cologne/Perfume]: something from Japan. I forget the name.
[CD in stereo right now]: I am an iPod listener.
[Piercings]: Ears.
[What you are wearing now]: Hoodie, shirt, sweat pants.
[Hair]: Ironed out, purplish, brownish, black and short.
[Makeup]: None.
[In my mouth]: My tongue, teeth, braces, and gums.
[In my head]: Music.
[Wishing]: I could shop in Tokyo right now.
[After this]: Sleeping hopefully.
[Talking to]: Myself.
[Eating]: Green tea milk, pumpkin spice pie.
[Some of your favorite movies]: Too many to name.
[Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming months]: Spice Girls concert.
[The last thing you ate?]: Pumpkin spice pie.
[Do you like candles]: Yes.
[Do you like incense]: Sometimes.
[Do you like the taste of blood]: Yes, my own.
[Do you believe in love]: Not at the moment. I believe in the lack of it.
[Do you believe in soul mates]: I used to.
[Do you believe in love at first sight]: No.
[Do you believe in forgiveness]: No. I don't think anyone else does either.
[If you could have any animal for a pet]: Tiger cub.
[What are 3 states you wouldn't mind relocating to?]: I prefer Europe or Japan.
[What's something you wish you could understand better?]: Myself.
[Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time?]: Yes.
[What's one thing you want to make happen for tomorrow?]: Homework done.
[What do you want to be when you grow up?]: Rich and traveling the world.

1. What is a question that people ask you that always gets on your nerves?
Have you eaten?
Do you want to eat?

2. Name something you have in common with all your siblings?
Horrible tempers and high cheekbones.

3. What is the greatest amount of physical pain you have ever had?
Massage beating on my sprained ankle.

4. What number of drinks constitutes your limit?
When I feel it all coming up.

5. Do you fold your underwear?
Yes, after they've been washed of course.

6. Who is the last person you wrote a letter to on paper?
Ate Nic.

7. Have you fired a gun before?
Hmmm...

8. Name someone you consider a genius?
Papa-san.

9. What was your favorite childhood toy?
Barbie.

10. Name a sound that disturbs you.
Soulja Boy. GO AWAY.

11. Name something random that you would never do.
Get lost in this city.

12. Name a person who's diary you would love to read?
I actually can't.

13. Have you ever had the same dream more than once?
No. Damn it

14. Name something that makes you happy.
Nutella.

15. Name something that made you laugh today.
Dinner.

16. If you were in an emergency situation and you had to deliver a baby...
I would deliver the baby.
What kind of answer did you want?

17. What is on your refrigerator door?
It's not my refrigerator.

18. Name the closest thing to you that is green?
Coffee mug.

19. If someone who didn't know you had to guess your name, what would it be?
I'll find out.
Wtf though.

20. Name something you have to do tomorrow.
Projects, assignment, homework.

21. Name a movie you are looking forward to watching.
American Gangster.

22. Have you ever called 911?
No.

23. Name something about women that tends to be true.
We're moody.

24. Do You Own An iPod?
Yes.

25. What Was The Last Movie You Watched?
Ocean's Thirteen.

26. Do Any Of Your Friends Have Children?
Yes.

27. What CD Is Currently In Your Cd Player?
I own an iPod, remember?

28. Do You Prefer Regular or Chocolate Milk?
It depends.

29. Has Anyone Told You A Secret This Week?
No. But I kept my own.

30. When Was The Last Time You Had Starbucks?
Last week.

31. Can You Whistle?
Why yes.

32. What is your favorite line from a song?
Pass.

33. Do You Think People Talk About You Behind Your Back?
You're nobody unless you're talked about.

34. What Movie Do You Know Every Line To?
Dunno.

37. Are you wanting any Tattoos and Piercings?
Ew.

38. Would You Ever Date Anyone Covered In Tattoos?
No. Unless it's David Beckham.

39. What Did You Do Before This?
Reading manga.

40. When Was The Last Time You Slept On The Floor?
Before I left for SF.

41. How Many Hours Of Sleep Do You Need To Function?
Haha.

42. Are You Picky About Spelling And Grammar?
Oh yes.

43. Do You Get Along Better With The Same Sex Or The Opposite?
It depends.

44. Do you sleep on your side, stomach, or back?
Side.

45. Do You Watch The news?
Sometimes.

46. Who was the last person to make you mad?
Ha.

47. Name one place you would rather be right now?
Tokyo dayo.

48. Do you feel alone?
Yes.
Most times, I bask in it.

isabelnecessary @ 2007-05-24T12:43:00

2007-05-24T04:10:51Z

Something must really be wrong with me.
I can't believe I've been acting the way I have been towards certain people.
To you, everyone... it is and never will be enough but I truly apologize...

...I realize that I've been very irresponsible lately.

It isn't anything new but lately more and more people have been been disappointed with me. That, too, is nothing new to me... that is, until it reflects badly on those people and until my actions have accumulated to the point that too much time has passed to make up for them.

Little by little, however, I am trying to take more responsibility and also to actually be more responsible. I think the two are very different things but the first I probably wouldn't have to do had I taken responsibility in the first place.

I never mean to be negligent but it's not like I hope for anyone to take care of my negligence either. When scolded, I don't try to say otherwise... I don't try to defend myself simply because there is no stand on my part that needs to be defended. I am fully aware of my actions and wish all the time I hadn't done whatever I did do.

It was never never never in my place for me to ever have complained when people are in far worse situations than I am and that I have things I have yet to settle.

There really is nothing I can do to clean up the mess I've already made but I can always keep out of trouble, take on tasks head on, as well as make less of a fool of myself and others.

I don't know why it's taken me this long to realize how stupid I am and have been.

Nothing could possibly make up for my stupidity up until now and it really will not surprise me if I end up being disowned and becoming an even sorrier creature on this planet.

Please just don't try to sympathize.
You would only be wasting your time.

春になりました。

2007-03-30T03:34:40Z

It's finally Spring.

Took a walk around Ueno Park yesterday with my dad and Aiko.

It was absolutely breathtaking and will be that way while the cherry blossoms last.
It almost makes me feel a little less sad that my dad will be heading back to Manila tomorrow.

Clouds of pink.
Don't you wish you could see it yourself?

I got Stephen Chow TWICE

2006-09-17T14:12:51Z

sorry to flood your friends pages.

this shit is addicting.

i made it 7 because i don't like the number 6.

i can't believe i got young jun matsumoto and tackey up there too.

funny how i can't find a picture of me that makes me resemble bethany joy ~~lenz~~ galeoti. quite a few people have mentioned i resemble her or vise-versa.

btw, most of the pictures i've found of her on google are from french websites. wha...?

Today's Friendster Horoscope:
Your latest urge to speed up your life might be a bit shortsighted. After all, there's some good stuff on the horizon, and you definitely don't want to miss it. Sure, there's going to be some not-so-good stuff, too, but it's all part of the experience of life. Embrace the balance and ride the tempo of your life the way it is -- slow and purposeful. Learn to dance according to the music that's being played ... your current groove is a good one.

i kinda like that. my groove.

isabelnecessary @ 2006-08-30T10:32:00

2006-08-30T02:42:01Z

I love Reader's Digest.

"If you have something you want to do in life,
don't think about the problems,
think about the ways to get it done."
-- Bobby Moresco, screenwriter
co-writer of Crash

Life's Simple Pleasures

2006-07-21T08:48:52Z

1. Two words: Ghirardelli Chocolate. 'nough said.

2. Falling asleep in the car and getting off just to go back to sleep on your own bed once you've gotten home.

3. The light-headed feeling you get after breaking away from a kiss you've just shared with your lover.

4. The quenched feeling you (I) get once a new episode of your (my) favorite shows has finished downloading. YUHUH!

5. When my sister comes home because what i feel when she leaves for the airport is the exact opposite of pleasurable.

What are your top 5 Simple Pleasures?
Feel free to comment and let me know.

i am le tired

2005-11-22T14:28:50Z

time to start anew... to my utter dismay.

friends only yo and i would like to leave it that way.